DESIGNS BY AYESHA

Director, Cinematographer & Editor

When I think about this shoot, I think about how nervous and scared I was on my way to it. I have done a lot of shoots before this one, but why was this so scary? It was my first time manageing a large group of people to model. Not only that, but all the models were my coworkers. Many showed up just to watch because they wanted to see me in "action". While I appreciated the support, it was scary because I felt like I had to do so much more to impress them. 

The shoot I planned was for an outdoor terrace. However, the weather did not cooperate that day. It was very cold, rainy and windy making it very hard to shoot outside. I had to come up with a new plan on the spot while all these people were depending on me. When we wrapped up the shoot and went home, I remember feeling very down. Usually when I leave a shoot, I have a clear idea in my mind of  what shots I'll use when I edit. But leaving this one, I wasn't sure what I was going to do because I was genuinely not satisfied with any of it. Thankfully, I was able to put together a video and Ayesha was very satisfied with it. 

This shoot was a huge learning experience for me because everything that could possibly go wrong, went wrong. Going forth, I know that I should always have contingency plans in case my original plan doesn't work out. I should also loosen up a little bit because the things I over analyze in my work are never usually visible to the average viewer. I'm still learning with every shoot and it's the growth and process that matters the most. 

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